I may be dreaming, but I'm longing to belong to you.

narcissus

All the leaves are falling, swirling, spiraling down more quickly every day. The wind keeps getting colder, and the nights are dark too early. I can feel the old loneliness creeping back. I try to push it off, to look for the gold in the long afternoons. 

I've planted some bulbs, and they live in a bowl on my bookcase. Making something grow is wonderful when everything outside is deadening. No life yet, but if I'm lucky I should have narcissus by Christmas. 

...they're awfully ugly, aren't they? :)

poem for a heavy tuesday

No speed of wind or water rushing by
But you have speed far greater. You can climb
Back up a stream of radiance to the sky,
And back through history up the stream of
      time.
And you were given this swiftness, not for 
      haste,
Nor chiefly that you may go where you will,
But in the rush of everything to waste,
That you may have the power of standing still--
      Off any still or moving thing you say.
Two such as you with such a master speed
Cannot be parted nor be swept away
From one another once you are agreed 
That life is only life forevermore
Together wing to wing and oar to oar.


~ The Master Speed by Robert Frost

autumn music

Na Na Nothing - Mike Doughty  { Clever and a little angry. "You get na-na-nothing, I found out that I'm a chump and you were cold, cold hearted to me." }


You Got It (acoustic) - Family Force 5  { So catchy, so snappy. It just makes me grin. "Heaven must be shampoo." }


The Last Crusade - Sam Roberts Band  { "You play the king and you play the pawn, you give up and you soldier on." }


There She Goes - The La's  { You know this song. But it's time you were reacquainted. This song was my summer. "There...she...goes.... There she goes again..." } 


So Much Love - The Rocket Summer  { I frequently sing this at the top of my lungs when I'm alone. "I've never had this feeling; it feels like gold! You got so much love in you." }


Home - Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros  { Learn it, love it, sing it forever. "Ohh home! let me go home. Home is wherever with you." }

A few dark songs, a few sunny songs. It's fall. This is how it goes. 

owl

photo by Rick Wylie

eight things

1. October. Oh, how I love October. Crisp air, warm sunshine. These are bright days. 
2. The hat I'm knitting out of smoky red wool. It's fluffy. 
3. My four-year-old sister, who said to me, "I really think you should see this," and then zipped up her jacket all by herself. 
4. The apple I managed to peel in one long, curly strip. I made applesauce.
5. Hot tea out of big, thick mugs, or the little white teapot. 
6. Reading outside and hearing woodpeckers. 
7. Good music, and lots of it. 
8. Hope. 

Lately happiness has been everywhere. It feels like late-afternoon sunshine.